Hello! I am back again. It has
been more than a year since my first post here! Life got very busy and there’s
a lot happened and I just didn’t have the time to write here again, I am sorry.
So, what’s up? I hope you are all alright. Now I’d like to write some of my
experiences chronologically, that happened right after my very first post,
around November 2016 up until now.
Late 2016
I was working at a friend’s
family business, they sell bubur manado (check ‘em on IG: buburmanadotunasuwir,
they have two branches in Surabaya). It was my first job ever. I went to work
by bike six days a week, six hours per day. I had enough for basic stuff but
most importantly it was a nice experience, I found one of my support systems
there.
Early 2017
I moved out to my dad’s in Bogor
in late January. We had a good time reconciling. It wasn’t (still hasn’t been)
easy with him, but we manage to keep things better. We are trying.
Eventually got my high school
degree in May, I was so happy yet thrilled because I was preparing for the
university entrance test.
And the best news of the year! I
got accepted at my dream university! On my dream studies! It still feels like a
dream really.
I made a lot of new friends in
uni and they’re all nice. I don’t know how to say it, I know I am socially
awkward but I have always loved making new friends and it’s just super nice to
be able to meet new people again.
And finally studying in uni! I
can’t imagine I would actually love my studies. For those who haven’t known, I
study French Studies at Universitas Indonesia, and the subjects are just superb!
Though I must admit that I got the lowest score on the subject that I like the
most. Haha well, people learn by time.
So that is the summary I can
possibly write, I try to make it as short and as objective as possible (but as
you can see, it’s not objective at all haha). If you asked me if it was easy,
hell no. As much as it sounds so much like all are good news here, understand
that things have to be equal in order to be balanced. I had to go through a lot
of not-so-good things and learned it the hard way before I eventually
“get what I want”. There were just a lot of lessons learned. But there were
also good times in between the bad, and it made the journey a lot nicer. So if
you asked me again if it was worth it, I would say yes. Definitely yes. I
learned a lot, I gained a lot of strengths I never knew existed in me, I became
more reflective and this experience made me be the person I am today.
And of course I am not perfect.
My journey doesn’t end here and it’s still waaaay to go before I (maybe) get to
be where I want to be. I am still progressing. We are all progressing. And that
is totally fine. I hope everyone reading this understand that it is okay to get
through pain to be where you want to be. To do what you want to do. To be who
you’re meant to be. Know what you want, be courageous, enjoy the process and
learn to love yourself in the journey.
I guess that is all. I will write
another post soon about another topic (or maybe similar, I don’t know). Writing
is a way to open up yet sometimes (or most of the time) somehow I just don’t
feel like it because opening up is damn difficult. I am writing here not just
to vent but also hopefully you’ll find something to think about here. Thanks
for reading. Ciao!
