The tale of Cronus and Zeus

Hey, there. You already know I love Astrology. Did you know that it is related to mythology? Particularly Roman mythology but it's basically similar with Greek mythology, just changes in names and maybe the stories a bit because there's varied stories on Greek and Roman mythology.

So, in Astrology there's this thing called chart ruler. Chart ruler is based on the ruler of your rising sign. My chart ruler is Jupiter. In Roman myth it's Jupiter, but in Greek myth it's Zeus. And while your chart ruler is Venus, I like to think of your natal chart as Saturn-heavy. Therefore you're heavily influenced by Saturn, or Cronus, in Greek myth. Funny thing is, Cronus is actually the father of Zeus.

Okay, enough random facts for today. It's just that I learned about this in my first semester at uni (no jokes, there's a class called Greek Mythology for all French Studies's students) and it's related to Astrology and I was so excited to learn about it. It also deepens my understanding in Astrology. Well, sort of.

I don't know if you're reading this or not but if so, yup, this is about you. Yes, you. Yes this is cringy, maybe a bit too much, way too crazy and a little too late, but who am I without my too much-ness, right? I think we could both agree on this this time. I might regret writing and posting this later, but oh well. You know why I'm writing about you here. I want to move on from you. I want to get on with my life, like really work on it. And with this full moon eclipse in Capricorn, this is a really good time to let you go. This time for good.

I gotta admit, our brief yet dense journey when the planetary positions weren't all that good (heck, we got together when Venus was in retrograde shadow period, man, what could be worse than that lol) . It really led me to think about things in life. That's actually a good thing, except it felt worse because it was the exam month for me and it made me feel like the dumbest person in the whole world with the whole situation. On top of that, you cut me off just like that. You even got someone new (who's not new new, I know). How dare you, duh.

It took me a little while to stop blaming myself for what happened.  It also got very unhealthy, like really unhealthy you wouldn't wanna know what, how, and why, that I decided I had to block you off all social medias for my own mental health. I think it's the combination of what we had, plus the corona situation (damn you corona you've made us all made some questionable decisions!). But yeah, I don't think you mind all of that. In fact, I know you don't even care.

Do I hate you? Maybe, but not as much as I hated myself for what happened lol. I'm recovering now, and that's why I'm typing this. Do I want to talk with you ever again after all of these really fade? I don't know. All I know is that I can't regret the time I spent with you. Let's admit it, it was quite nice for a while. We (I mean I, at least), had nice moments with you. In a year or even less than that from now, this all won't matter. Bruh we only dated for a month lol it musn't be that deep. (No, no puns intended).

I'd like to conclude this writing with the famous statement: Everything happens for a reason.  I'd like to interpret it this way: astrologically, as mentioned before, I'm a Jupiter-ruled person. Jupiter is all about expansion, could be to expand your mind or views on things, to gain new perspectives, to explore, literally and spiritually. Maybe, just maybe, we met for you to expand, to gain new ways on how you see things, whatever that means. And as you're a Saturn-heavy person, I think your brief presence is to actually teach me something, as Saturn is the father, the teacher of the zodiac. It will give you the same hardships over and over again, until you really learn your lesson. Judging from this alone, I know I didn't learn the lesson hard enough. But now I'm confident enough to say, ok, lesson learned, Saturn. Now what's next? Bring them all on!

All in all, it was an interesting experience to date an Indonesian :p I still have so much to learn dang. 

From the deepest, most cringey, too too much of my heart, I wish you well. Now, off I go. Onwards.

Adieu!